Today, I'm having one of "those days." Parker is the absolute cutest boy, the love of my life (along with his father.) But this week, he has truly tested my patience. I think he is teething again because he has been a super picky eater, has a runny nose and a slight cough, is throwing tantrums like I've never seen before, and is so whiney and needy most of the day. I thought I was almost done with this teething thing. I guess I would be the same way if I was cutting molars too.
Yesterday, he went to time-out for the first time-- and for good reason: he broke one of the ornaments on our Christmas tree by throwing it across the kitchen... and he knows not to touch my tree. Yes, I know he's only 16 months, but that boy catches onto everything, he definitely knew he did something wrong. Then, last night we took him to Costco and he threw tantrums about 60% of the time (which felt like an eternity.) He cried the whole way home and I thought my head was going to explode. I thought to myself, "Wow... I'm starting this all over again in three months... crazy...." But after sitting down and having a moment to sort through my thoughts, I realized that I wouldn't have it any. other. way. I will take the tantrums over not being able to have children. My mom has had so many miscarriages in the past (I think 16 to be exact.) She is such a strong, faithful woman. I aspire to be like her. And now, my dear cousin Liz just had a miscarriage. I read her post tonight about how sad she feels and I cried because here I was wrapped up in my own selfish, whiney thoughts, and my close friend is facing something much, much harder. I guess the Lord wanted to humble me... and he sure did. I feel so blessed that I get to have another baby. I have a few close friends that have struggled with getting pregnant or have had miscarriages. That would be so painfully hard. I just needed to realize how good I really have it. All children go through these things, and this too shall pass and I'll have my happy little Parker back. Now, here are some pictures of what this little, mischievous boy has been up to.
|What Mom? I wasn't touching anything? What are you looking at?|
|Okay... I just wanted to touch this ornament to see what it tasted like, that's all. (Notice the truck keys in his hand... he always has a set of keys on hand now.)|
|One thing he LOVES for sure is reading books. We read at least 15 to 20 books a day now. He can't get enough of them, it's great! I love watching him sitting on the floor looking at books by himself... one of the highlights of my day.|